OK, so here it is. I've been feeling bad for a while now. Pretty much started feeling bad after we finished body for life in May. Yes, I've lost 30ish pounds from my heaviest, and yes I lost 15 lbs on body for life, but I feel like I've been resting on that for too long. I'm not happy with how I look, and more importantly, I'm not happy with how I feel. Too much sugar, too many refined carbs make Katy something something.
I don't want this blog to be all, poor me, help me...but I'm asking for some help. There are a lot of people who blog who have lost a lot of weight. Now I'm sure many of you didn't just power through your 100 lbs, you had setbacks right? What did you do to move through those times where all you want to do is do nothing and eat fried chicken? I've been in this stalling period for a while now and it seems like nothing is going to pull me out again.
I spent 3 months totally feeling alive and like a different person on body for life and now I honestly just feel like a person sort of "faking it." I feel like part of me is slipping back into that same old person who I used to be, except I know I'm not her anymore...even though I feel like crap again. I've tasted what it was like to feel powerful, excited, passionate, healthy, strong, so in those ways I don't feel like I'll ever fully go back to "old katy" but I feel her creeping in more and more lately and it really just scares me.
I really hate the idea of posting this sort of blog every month, week etc...It would be easier to just sneak away into the land of lost blogs, but I really just need some insight. It's like I know what I need to do in a lot of ways, but how do I do it? I know, I know...just do it. But mother fucker, it's hard! Am I right?