I don't care what you say, I fully expect my life to be better when I'm thinner. If I didn't, then WHY would I be trying to lose weight?
I've had mixed emotions about goal setting for a long time now. Well, goal setting in regards to weight loss. I can't tell you how many times I've told myself that I wanted to be "X" size or "Y" weight by a certain time frame or event.
Scott and I are spending Christmas in Chicago this year. I'm beyond excited. I love Chicago more than any other city and I think Christmas in Chicago is so romantic in a 1940's, men wearing hats (not the band), women dressing in fur and red lipstick, sort of way. I plan on doing a lot of kissing, Manhattan drinking, fire gazing, Christmas light watching and just overall nuzzling. Can I do this at the weight that I am? Yep. Do I want to? Nope. It's like somehow I feel like my experience will be diminished in some way if I'm fat.
I don't believe the lie that life will somehow be magically delicious if I'm thin, but in a lot of ways I think it will be better. I know, I know...I'm not supposed to say that, but I think it's true. Because, truth is, life IS easier in many ways for thin people. Take shopping for instance. This weekend we were dreaming up things to do while we're in Chi-town and I was all, we should wear hats! And Scott was like, ok. Then I was like, I want one with one of those net things in front, and he was like, a veil? Then he suggested going to a haberdashery in Chicago. Do you all think hats are as awesome as I do? Something old timey about them... makes me want to do old timey things.
So one day when we're in Chicago we're going to buy Scott a new suit, me a fancy dress and go to a haberdashery and get hats...a net one for me please, Ahem, a "veil" excuse me. Then maybe go see a play.
But here's where the potential problem lies. It's not super easy for girls "just my size" to find fancy dresses on a whim. I'm a 16 on a good day, 18 on a regular day. Where am I going to shop? Old freekin' Navy? I don't think so. I'm not expecting to go into any store and be able to fit into everything, but I also don't want to be limited to the Plus size section of Macy's or Old Navy. Nothing says disappointment like traveling to Chicago, walking down Michigan Ave and buying clothes at Old Navy or worse...Target. Sort of like eating at Chili's on vacation when you have a million new restaurants to try.
So my "goal" is to be in a normal size by Christmas. I'm thinking 14 is as realistic as it's going to get for that time frame. I'll even settle for 14 on a good day, 16 on a regular day, although the smaller I am, the easier it will be for me to shop. I'm so motivated by shopping and clothes. Some people are motivated by climbing mountains and running marathons, I'm motivated by designer jeans. Shallow? Maybe. But I'm not a shallow person, I just prefer to dress like one.
What motivates you? Do you think that goal setting is healthy, or do you think that in a way we're setting ourselves up for disappointment?